cryptics and updates and shit of that sort

how can one be lost and yet completely found? i've come to realize we
are all made up of these various fractions and our soul mission in life
is to balance these scattered pieces of ourselves. i've placed some of
them together but there are a few more that need to be taken care of.
i'm just not sure where they belong right now.

i'm slowly building my writing portfolio, it's not even nearly as nice
as i'd like it to be. i interviewed ashley costello from new years day
and she is the sweetest ever,i've always loved her. she told me i'm
better than AP at this interviewing thing eeeeeeee..she's great. i'm
adding that to my portfolio definitely and possibly posting it in a
webzine somewhere,maybe? i know she wants it to be read so hopefully i
can do that for her.

saturday is etf and i can't waitttttttt! last time i saw them was in
november and it's been way too long. i'm really stoked on that.

my birth certificate is on it's way to me as we speak, ID and partying
soon yesyesyes

i have a job..kind of. i don't start until summer but it's at the all
glorious subway!!!! i'm going to save up for a car and for
school..speaking of school..

BEST NEWS YET.......
tammy ellens from specs howard called me today. she told me she's talked
to my counselor and i set up an appointment to visit wednesday of next
week. i'm really fucking happy, this is my one and only school i want to
go to so if i get in i'd die a happy fucking woman. i seriously cannot
wait for next week! not only that but my friend ashley works at a radio
station and can maybe get me an internship zxdsfhjkxcjkdfzsjkxcfkdj DOES
ANYONE FUCKING GET THAT RADIO. IS. MY. DREAM. i'd be so..so happy... you
have no idea.

all of these are good..good things for me. 3 more months of high school
fuckity fuck fuck. i just want to be happy.:)
-- Elle<3

i like to write to feel

without nearby land, there's a shipwreck in my chest
i captivate and set no fire for sanctuary
aboard an abandoned piece of me
i left room for your honest canvas
paint the sunshine for me to see
something i cannot touch
admire from where i stand, in admirations of ink
splattered across these chapped lips
a scattered map to hope and devotion
the inability to swallow these emotions is my start
i ask you to press your lips to the stars
i kiss them worlds apart.
xo
-- Elle<3

new hair,new a lot of things.

my back hurts and i'm going to die. mikey is laying his head on my lap
right now falling asleep fuck hiiiimmmmmm..but his bday is tomorrow<3

i love,live,laugh for me..maybe one day someone can share that.
-- Elle<3

i love jesssssssss

i submitted my first college app hahaha

i started going back to school today and i'm happy about it. i have a
lot of shit to make up, progress reports are due thursday so i'm going
to try to get everything in by tomorrow. not that i'm really
worried,progress reports aren't shit. i bring the stress on my shoulders
so i should just suck it up, huh? i'm good at this"just betting by"
thing. i'll work on it.
today i wrote my first sonnet. i'd write it here but i don't have it
right now. i love all that shakespeare shit
thursday is my last credit recovery class yaaaaaaay!! no more late
hours
i have to memorize a poem tonight :(
random.. but i am a vegetarian now!!!! i actually don't consider myself
one yet.. but it is day number 4 without meat. today i made some pasta
shit and a bunch of fruit...aaaaaamazing way better than some cut up
dead cow.

next week is my week off. i'm going to be doing a lot of work and a lot
of getting drunk. yea i'm soooooo responsible...

SO GOOD